I Can Fly

The Water Dance

"I think I can fly, closer to the sky
No ones telling you how to live your life.. "
I just remembered one of the Madonna songs when I saw this picture.


The Sky Oddyssey

Isn't it beautiful? I feel like embracing the whole sky in my two arms :)

Today's Inspiration

“We move from the illusion of certainty to the certainty of illusion.”
-Unknown

It is love alone that leads to right action. What brings order in the world is to love and let love do what it will.
by Jiddu Krishnamurti

In matters of conscience, the law of majority has no place.
Mohandas Karamchand Gandhi

Great spirits have always found violent opposition from mediocrities.The latter cannot understand it when a man does not thoughtlessly submit to hereditary prejudices but honestly and courageously uses his intelligence.
-- Albert Einstein

My grandfather once told me that there were two kinds of people: those who do the work and those who take the credit. He told me to try to be in the first group; there was much less competition.
Indira Gandhi

Whatever you do may seem insignificant to you, but it is most important that you do it.
Mahatma Gandhi

When I despair, I remember that all through history the way of truth and love have always won. There have been tyrants, and murderers, and for a time they can seem invincible, but in the end they always fall. Think of it...always.
Mahatma Gandhi

Does Evryone have a Secret Part of Life?

What is a secret? A Secret is some event or incident, which you know about, but others who claim to know you well don't. There can be one of the two origins of it being a secret:

1. You intend to keep it secret

2. You never got a chance to reveal "the secret" event/incident.

Why we don't reveal these secretive incidents? "The Secret out" situation can be harming one's interests, or one may be afraid of the other being judgemental about oneself. The first case can be more selfish. The later game we play is less harming, not so selfish. I look into myself, why I have not told couple of things to my friends whom I consider close. I was self-analyzing: Am I ashamed of it? Am I afraid of my friend to be judgemental? I have a friend, who is quite close, we hang out couple of times a week, dine together, cook together, gossip together, and help eachother. I have known this friend since last 2 years, and There are somethings I have not revealed to her which happend even before I met my friend. Firstly I did not mention this to my friend without any intention of keeping secret.

A friend of mine came up with a term "need to know basis" information revealing. I find it quite political, safe game, which may be justified as fair. It is our own justificvation afterall, so you feel less guilty. It is a secret when people close to you don't know what you believe is of importance, and that you will be judge wrong if told. Some times we wait for "better time" to reveal it. This is sheer manipulation of human psychology. Better time translates to better mood/place/more favorable situation .

This film ran thru my mind because, I still havn't revealed my "secret", and I am still waiting for "better time" to reveal. I do want to reveal my so called "secret" to her, but it's also too late now for her to be close to me..

What am I seeking?

I am looking back to my 30 years of life, and shockingly I realized a very obvious still unknown fact! Whole of my 30 years, I have spent in waiting..! Waiting for something to happen in my favor, we call it hope. Hope is waiting for a thing to happen you want in future, and living with a belief that it will happen, neglecting the options available in my present. Is hope a really virtue? Hope makes you believe in future, un-acknowledging the present. I was shocked at this realization. If I were to die today, I feel, I have not lived my life, I am still waiting, waiting for future. I am ignoring my today's options to be happy in a hope to live in future.

Where to begin from? Before starting school, I was waiting for school, when in school, wait for holidays, wait for exams to get over, wait for vacation, wait for new uniforms, wait for getting elder to be able to make own decisions, wait to be independent, after school, wait for college, wait for revealing the uncertain career, while in college, wait for the degree, wait for favorable job, wait for any opportunity to go to US, wait for GRE tests, wait for admissions, wait for visa, wait for landing, wait for semesters to end, wait for job, wait for relationship, wait for relationship to get better, wait for living alone, my whole life has been waiting, all of sudden I had this realization. I have a couple of resolutions for myself:
1. Be Happy
2. Don't worry
3. have patinece, wait, be cautious
And with today's realization, I have an internal conflict about wait. Waiting has become my habit, and it has been so deceivingly active. I am in a fight rightnow about waiting. I had let go so many chances of living in this "waiting". I used to take risk, and with my resolving to be cautious, I less became adventurist, I less take risks. The part of my mind which favors being cautious, warns me of not waiting situation, and the part which favors not waiting, warns me of years slipping thru my life, And I am at a juncture, with realizing losing of 30 years in waiting, start to not to wait eventually. I have not come to any conclusion though, this fight within is not against of or in favor of me, it's not losing either way. but I feel, I need to be more adventurous now..