Thursday, May 17, 2007

agony or bliss ?

How confident we feel to think that we are the makers of our own future!
I have realized in past and also realizing it now, that there is nothing in this world that we can control, except our own attitude.

I live in a loft style apartment, really cool one! it is sort of a separate unit, sharing one wall with my neighbor. and now, something happened that I will have to vacate it.

I am in love with this apartment. I have a patio, right on a small man-made pond. the so called bed room is upstairs, gives a feel of a house! I love this apartment during summers! I can sit on the steps at the pond in my patio, sipping through watermelon juice, that's one of my rituals during summer. handing out candies to those playing kids, chatting with neighbors while walking past the common entrance. I have two private entrances for my apartment! There are lesser amenities here, but the patio on the pond and slanting roof, huge windows flooding the whole place with sunrise were making up for it. I will have to give this up next week.

I then thought that I have two choices, either be in agony of leaving the apartment i am in love with for last 4 years or be optimistic about bigger kitchen, more amenities, and possibility of getting satellite dish for Indian channels!

I am more leaning towards the second choice :) , bit expensive though, I am realizing the cost of owning big screen tv, furniture, etc. It is expensive to move with all these stuff! thank god, I did not go for a couch yet, and got just settled with a futon!

this might also be symbolic, I am ready to welcome big changes in life, anticipating many more changes to come along the way.

I'm moving out on the memorial day long weekend, which starts on May 25. Ironically, this is also the date, my grandma passed away last year... may her soul be at peace. remembering her, I will start moving out...

9 comments:

Unknown said...

Change is always good. Always. I hope remembering your grandmother makes you smile.

Alexis said...

The new place must be really good...But I hate shifting,moving all the stuff, rearranging them and so on. But you still have the Mazda :-)

Hope you have a nice time shifting and have nice neighbors and beautiful surroundings...

venus said...

snuffleupagus:
you have an interesting name!
yes, change is the only eternal phenomena, and I am welcoming it with a positive attitude. I can not forget my grandma who had been part of my life since my birth!

Alexis:
I am being hopeful for the new place. I know, packing and unpacking and arranging things again, it's very time consuming, and when you have to do it alone, even more painful. but, I am waiting for new memories to take shape at the new place now :)

yes, mazda is still one of my best companions :)

Khakra said...

Buy it, don't settle for anything less. Or buy the pond

Anonymous said...

haa haa, one day I will buy the pond too!

Lorena said...

hope you learn to love the new place.

i love watermelon!!

Anonymous said...

yeah, I have started to get adjusted in y new place, I love the balcony here, I sit in the balcony facing courtyard, and a man-made stream of water, very peaceful place.

watermelon was also one of the bonding fruit between me and couple of kids from neighborhood until last year :)

bablu said...

Well hope U have moved to the new place and how is it ? Condolences to your GranMa.

venus said...

bablu:
thank you for your kind wishes.
yes, I got used to my newer place. With newer place, I have newer annoyances, I can't open and sit in my balcony when other people are smoking/cooking, all the smell comes to my place :( will write about it some other time..