my 5s!!

My top 5s, it's tagging season, and I am also not spared :) thanks to Alexis Leon and Geo :)

It's a looooong post, so hold your horses :):D

As Silverine has pointed out, these tags are kind of confessions, which, I believe, brings us human beings together.

here it goes:

5 people who top your sh*t list….. and why:

1. one jerk I knew who manipulated any relatinship for his own selfish purpose, who constantly lied, I would never forgive this one human aka monster being. It's so difficult for me to believe that this guy has no conscience. Earth would be much more lighter if people like him never existed. Funny coincidence is the meaning of this person's name if spelled in english also means sh*t !!

I usually don't hate anyone, but sometimes, I can have situational hate for a person, and usually it's temporary. the rest of my list is not on one specific human being.. And i would not call hate, I would call them my dislikes, or annoyance. Hate would be too harsh of a word for these:

2. I am a staunch capitalist, I believe people make as much money as they deserve, I don't like people who blame riches for their poverty. I believe that they are poor, because they don't earn it.
3. any undeserving person getting to the top in politics just because he/she is a wife/son/daughter of someone successful.
4. I hate anyone who is driving at or below the speed limit just to play smart in the left most lane when all the other lanes are empty>> this really irritates me, these grandpas MUST drive in the rightmost lane, it's for them!
5. anyone who keeps 1 mile distance between his vehicale and the vehicle ahead of him in the rush hour traffic, this really pisses me off.

Close brushes with death/danger:


To be frank, i feel i have had many brushes with severe danger / death. I am quite an adventurist, and I am not feared of anything, and if I come to realize I am feared of something, i would put myself into that fear purposefully, and will try to overcome that fear.

1. When I was 10 months old, my pediatrician had asked my parents to do whatever last rituals they wanted to do for me. I was put on an ice slab, since my body temperature was not budging from 105 deg F for a few days and my stomach was swelling up of fluid retention, and I was not eating anything!

2. When in my 2nd grade, in the evening when my mid year exam just got over, just a day before diwali vacation, I was busy celebrating freedom from studies with firing fire crackers with other kids. At the same time, some great uncle decided to give his scooter to his 14 yr old nephew to try it out, and guess what?? he tried it out on me, dragging me for a couple of feet with his scooter! I was severly injured on my face, on my cheek, my upper lip got teared in two halves, my nose was cut in two halves... god knows for how long I had passed out.. my parents had gone to the market for groceries shopping, and our neighbors took me to the hospital. My parents later told me that they were praising me that I did not cry inspite of such a grave injury.. and I cried only when I saw my parents.. I very clearly remember that I didn't and don't remember anything that happened to me. All I remember is a faint image of a lit up sparkle stick in my hand, and next image I have is of my head in someone's lap on some kind of a seat, don't remember if it was a car seat on the back or ambulance or a nearby dispensary bench. the next thing I remember is I was in a specialist hospital where I asked my mom to show me my face in the mirror. upon my parents' asking the doctor how many stiches he took on my face, he said that even he didn't count them! With God's grace, I still have my beautiful face inspite of 14 yr old's scooter adventure :)

3. I have had many more accidents, I don't know, there's something with me and any vehicle I drive (oops, my secret is out :( ) None of them were as severe as above mentioned though. My all knees and elbows and feet are at least 2 to 3 times injured from all sides! these were now my fault, believe me! per say, once I had to choose between a herd of buffaloes, a truck and a huge ditch in a huge water puddle, and I made the same decision any sensible driver would make, since, any two wheeler would not go in a reverse direction, I decide to steer to the big ditch with water puddle!

4. when I realized that aforementioned toplisted in the hatelist son of a b* also played with me. I had never felt so helpless in mylife, and I swear to god, I will not feel like this ever in my life, I will rather make other people helpless when it would come to making me helpless. This is not really death brush, but I put the severity of my feelings in this category.

5. This is also not a brush with death, but I put myself in grave danger on my first day in USA, with deciding to chage my university at the port of entry, with no one to receive me at a deserted domestic airport at my new final destination, with 39 hrs of straight air travel+waiting, starving with severe ear pain during and after flights, and no sleep, I chose to go with a visibly south asian origined father and a son strangesrs, though knowing that they were from our dearest neighborhood, instead of some huge african american fella dragging my luggage to god-knows-where with realizing more of his buddies around. At this moment, I used the principle of known, at least i knew what pakistan was!


5 Preferable modes of suicide, in descending order:

I don't believe in commiting suicide, it is running away from the reality. But, this kind of thoughts may come to one's mind when person is really low, and feeling hopeless and helpless. I would rather seek some professional help instead of commiting suicide if I ever get into this mode. I believe in fighting, not accepting defeat without fighting.

but, whenever I had thought about diff modes, the sleeping death always sounds better option, taking lots of sleeping pills.

no more to add here..

5 Guilty pleasures:

I have never felt guilty of anything I have done or anything I have been doing! No Regrets! And, I am proud of it!

5 things you never want to forget:

1. My Family. I can never forget my family. My family is my the first priority, no matter what.

2. The day I graduated in the presence of my parents, with already having a well paid job. I had never felt this successful and happier in my life before :)

3. The day my sis got married, but I do want to forget crying part of the wedding..

4. My diwali celebration in the year 2005 with my family after a very long time.

5. Our family road trips to diff parts of India during my school years.


5 things you wish to forget:

1. I feel that I did not play my role as a friend cum sister to my sis, I was a shy, reserved, ambitious girl, and by my not creating a comfortable environment with my sis to share everything in her life with me, and that she had to seek friends to open herself :( :( and when she needed me the most, I was all the way in a different part of the world, when I always cared very much for my family.. I am being very careful of not repeating this again now!

2. As a part of training, and also convincing my sis, we enacted how someone would grab a kid from behind and kidnap- with my li'l brother, and the poor soul started crying and sobbing on the road... till the date, I feel very bad about this, though I had good intentions behind this..

3. Once when I was probably in 1st or 2nd grade, I had stolen a unattended lipstick which belogned to someone else, at a family function. My parents found it out and to my surprize and grave scare, I got a good scolding when I thought I was gonna get a corporal. I wish I would have never stolen it. since then, I have never stolen anything. It took me lot of courage to say this btw..

4. My time, I wasted with the aforementioned selfish jerk, I wish, I would have never met that jerk.

5. 2nd day after I had a abdominal laparoscopic surgery, when I was in grave pain, I could barely speak, and could barely get out of my bed, one of my close, respected relatives who was implying that I am not helping them in housechores enough. I moved out the very next day and I managed everything by myself and with some help from my friends alone.

5 really exotic dishes you have tried:

1. Anything I cook :)

2. my loving dear friend's spinach+coconut+garlic dish... mmmm yum yum!!

3. My mom's many of the speciality dishes :)

4. The pizza we used make at home with loads of amul cheese!!!

5. I's not dish but it gives me a kick like any other exotic dish whenever I have it; sweetlime juice.. :)


5 crushes/loves in your life… in chronological order

1. Salman Khan, I still like him, He has the perfect looks, dances really well, and he's quite stylish.
2. My classmate kid from my highschool, he also had a crush on me, which couldn't go any far, since he moved out to another country very soon.
3. Saif Ali khan in Parineeta, looks so goood in this movie..
4. John Abrahm, recently, he looks very dashing, good height, square jaw, long hair :)
5. keanu reeves, tom cruise, russell crowe.

Strangest dream you ever had:

Oh my god, I wish I will never have to see this dream again :(
I woke up with a dream in which the last scene I remember was- I was crying, sobbing in a very lonely but green place, away from city, in some balcony on a farm filled with dried crop, for my dad.. ( I, right at this moment, also feel very bad even to say this out :(:( ) on the news that he was no more :(:( And the freakiest coincidence was, when I was watching this dream in one part of the world, at the same time, in the other part of the world, my dad had met with an accident... It was soooo scary... I pray I will never have to see this dream again...


5 most valued personal possessions:

1. My family
3. my car.. now, I'm getting used to scartches :(
3. phone- any, cellular, land-line or work.
4. my friends
5. my clothes and accessories, love it! sometimes, it can take 20-30 mins while rushing to the work in mornings to make a perfect dress up to suit my mood :) I dress according my mood. One day, i can be as sharply dressed as a hollywood actress and on other day, I can be a senselessly and tastelessly dressed lassie who does not want any attention, more like, leave me alone!

5 favorite superheroes….. and why:

I am not into magical or mythical characters, neither am I into cartoons, I find it childish. but I don't judge anyone as childish who is crazed about 'em. I rather don't judge anyone. So, my list of super heroes goes this real:

1. Bill Gates - how he became the richest man in the world, though themost of us, including myself support no-microsoft thought-line.
2. Warren Buffett - How smartly and toughtfully he invested, and made his fortune.
3. Mahatma Gandhi - inspite of coming from an average background, he could manage the shrewedst, lead the entire country and even mohammad ali jinnah followed him! He got us freedom with a concept of non-violent resistance!!! He mesmerized the masses with his one word! The Most Successful Leader ever in this world!! I have not known any other such a great leader, though I feel he had made a few mistakes. but I can undermine them, he was a human being, not god, and may be if I were in his place, I would have taken the same decisions.
4. Atal Bihari Vajpayee - The best orator I have ever heard, and the best present day politician I have known.
5. Narayn Murthy - starting with $10000 bank balance, how successfully he has made his dream- infosys come true.

I am tagging and jithu :) (I know, what's coming next from you... ohhh Nooo, not again :P) and anyone else interested into this self revelation!

Another Tag!!

Here is another tag...thanks to Geo :)

1.Grab the book nearest to you, turn on page 18 and find line 4.
Composite Index, is quoted nearly as widely as the Dow Jones Industrial Average

2.Stretch your left arm out as far as you can.
yeah, I did.. and now I feel like stretching even more, and now thinking of doing yoga :)

3. What is the last thing you watched on TV?
Havn't watched tv in a while.. but, I think last time i watched was 3-4 days back, when I could not sleep in the middle of a night- some episode of Fresh Prince of Bell-Air.

4.Without looking, guess what time it is?
8:30 AM?

5. Now look at the clock, what is the actual time?
8:35 AM
Yay!! pretty close :)

6. With the exception of the computer, what can you hear?
Nothing, absolutely nothing :(

7. When did you last step outside? What were you doing?
last evening, went out to a south indian restaurant for dinner

8. Before you started this survey, what did you look at?
my hotmail, yahoo and work inboxes to see if it says: 'you've got mail' from someone i might get.. and noooo I did not get any email from anyone :(:(
And ofcourse Geo’s blog to copy this tag…

9. What are you wearing?
I'm still in PJs, itz Sunday !!

10. Did you dream last night?
Don’t remember anything now…

11. When did you last laugh?
was yesterday when I met my friends from prev work, and were discussing about getting Farmer's insurance for my post accident car insurance shopping. They send mags on tractors and cows and all other farm related stuff. hell lot of laughs on why vibes should get a cow sell off his mazda miata, and not worry about gas or environment, and biodegradability!! and how he can make an exclusive deal wih Farmers insurance so they can not insure Lalu Prasad Yadav, and how he can go to multiplex on 'chal meri cow' and park it in a preferred parking spot :D:D

12. What is on the walls of the room you are in?
A greek male and a female characters in a painting, and a poster to boost myself :)

13 Seen anything weird lately?
Nope

14. What do you think of this quiz?
hmm.. it's fun, thanks to Geo :)

15. What is the last film you saw?
Taxi 9211

16. If you became a multimillionaire overnight, what would you buy?
Good question… mazda 6, I already have it :)) so the list goes like this:
around the world trip,
a charter plane so that I can hop into it whenever i feel like visiting india :)
and some business to invest and make more money :)

17. Tell me something about you that I dunno.
I was a topper too.
Any success has not come to me easily, I have rather earned it.
I appreciate good people, things that comes along my way

18. If you could change one thing about the world, regardless of guilt or politics, what would you do?
I am not very opimistic that one person can change the entire world, so I give up, I can change only myself, and I'll start with that!

19. Do you like to dance?
oh yes, vey much.. love it!

20. George Bush.
to sum it up- George W Bush, the president of the un-united world

21. Imagine your first child is a girl, what do you call her?
Haven't thought of a name yet

22. Imagine your first child is a boy, what do you call him?
Haven't thought this either :-S

23. Would you ever consider living abroad?
I am living abroad, but not sure if I wanna stay here for ever..

24.What do you want GOD to say to you when you reach the pearly gates?
My child, I love you, come to me and give me a big hug

25. 5 people who must also do this meme in their journal.
Alexis Leon,Jithu, Silverine, Lorena, Sid, and anyone else who is interested :)

chewing gum- call it the STICKY gum!

A chewing gum, how much fun can it be?

well, health mags say that it's good for your gums, breath and teeth, and to be frank, chewing gum helps me stay awake when i'm driving late sometimes. but what they never tell you is how bad/worse/worst it can be!

An accident because of the legendary "CHEWING GUM"! Yes, it's the chewing gum, and I ended up being in fault, when it should be this gum!

I had to give up on one of my formals once!
Innocent I believed that all the place in the world are 'chewed' gum free, and I sit on a step at a very happening place in the summer, and guess what! My 'stark' black skirt was not just black anymore, my skirt did not want to get separated from the concrete steps I was sitting, and the cementing element was again, the legendary- chewed wrigley, contributing to wrigley's wealth, and showing off the execution of the univeral right to free spit!

on my carpet, I have this wrigely, never letting me forget it's existance, thanks to it's journey from nobody-knows-from-where to my shoes and to my carpet!

Well, back to the accident caused by this wrigley-
the cop thinks it's my fault, and he also issued me a ticket :(
it was wrigley, but the cop is not ready to listen to me.

somehow someone's free gum spit right execution ended up under my right shoe sole, which is the only foot I use for driving my auto/manual transmission mazda. I was getting annoyed by my sticky foot a.k.a. sticky gas paddle/break paddle.

I approach a stop light, seeing from far, was red. nearer I get, it turns green, with another car in front of me, with good safe distance between us. He slowed down, so did I, and since he was the only one in his lane with no one in his front, I presumed that he is going to speed up, since, the light is now green, and he will match the speed limit of 40mph.

How wrong my judgement was! I decided to give a quick attention to my anoyance without increasing my speed, the shoe sole, to find out what is going on with this stickiness, why this stickiness! And rest is not at all golden history :(

my fault, the first "TICKET" in my 3 years of driving history, a crack on my front bumper on my 2.5 yrs old car :( and a small dent on rear bumper of the other car with my insurance going higher next year..

you tell me now- who should be prosecuted?

Right Judgement?

What is right and what is wrong? It's the question disturbing me today. One thing I have learnt is that when you are confused, and in a moment, DO NOT DECIDE. I don't trust my decisions when I am confused or in a moment, I also start doubting my past rationality, My own logic would prove my past decisions very non-rational, emotioanlly taken!

What seems right to me , does not seem right to other people. And I get shaken, because, I have been proven wrong at times (and I still don't believe I was wrong! Heights of positivity, or ego??)

But still, I am of the personality, I can not rely on others' judgment. I can not follow others perception, I get suffocated even if I think of following it. Not even my parents' !

I am in a middle of this moment rightnow, thinking, why world is not simpler, why things get so complicated..

I would remember what my favorite cousin, my big sister, keeps telling me- There is no right or wrong thing, it's just a choice, you can choose better! I like that. But again, it is a very difficult job- to choose better.

I bet, you got this very right- that I am a gravely confused mind righnow.. will get over it soon though.